Forty-one thousand and one. The population of Puyallup, Washington. The location where I have spent my entire life. Where, throughout childhood, I constantly battled and balanced self-expression with the fear of ridicule and not being accepted. My work is heavily inspired by the suburban environment and the insecurities that coincide with adolescence. Through the process of painting, collage, and assemblage, I am depicting a personal reflection of the hidden darkness between the relationship of suburbia and childhood. Fragmented family photographs offer a deep reflection of anguish and mourning. In the midst of familial remembrance and disorder, contemporary images arise, which continue into a nostalgic, yet modern sense of chaos and psychological damage.
The act of creating allows me to delve into my mind for my most intimate feelings, which helps me process the world I grew up in and live in today. I often reminisce of past experiences and thoughts converging with current or reoccurring ones. This leads to a critique of the suburban dream and sheds light on the dark elements of domestic life and childhood. The restlessness of awaiting the first day of school, just as thrilling as the restlessness prompted by fear. From the school cafeteria to the kitchen table, my teenage years continues the constant banter of youthful curiosity and fearful rage. The callused psyche bursts into scattered thoughts, revealing fragments of emotion amongst utter mayhem.